Unbearable Pain: My Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Kristen Kennedy
Kristen Kennedy

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